There's something beautiful about a half-packed suitcase. Something new and comfortable and frenetic. Something exciting.
In less than two days I'll be on the move, when each passing minute will bring me that much closer to you.
I can't wait.
I decided on my little excursion all over the whole of New England this past weekend that the New England town is quite possibly my new favorite thing. I mean, it's one thing to go to school in one for a few months, but it's quite another to go across all sorts of state lines and have them all be just as picturesque and lovely, if not more so.
This is Brattleboro, VT. I took this picture as we were crossing one of the bridges across the river. On the other side was New Hampshire. It was crazy. Of course, by virtue of it being Vermont, there are hardly any WalMarts in the state, so we crossed on foot to New Hampshire to get my friend more yarn for her knitting projects.
Teehee. I promise that's not my handwriting.
Driving from Maine, across New Hampshire, into Vermont, across Massachusetts, into Rhode Island, back across Massachusetts to return to Vermont, into New Hampshire again, and finally back into Maine was quite the crazy few days. And though I couldn't go home for Thanksgiving, I'm really glad I decided not to stay at school, either. I met wonderful people and had a good time, which included but was not limited to: becoming a one-year-old's new best friend, sipping homemade wine, Seinfeld Scene-It, turkey, talking til late at night, becoming the Persephone of New England with the taste of a pomegranate, and British television.
That said, I cannot wait to go back to San Diego. <3
Hope your holiday was as good as mine.
It's late. I'm tired. But I figured I'd better update this thing. A big apology to readers interested in hearing more about Forks: it will come. Soon. I promise.
Being back home... is indescribable. I've never been so homesick. And I never want to be again. It wasn't even that bad, to be honest. It just... sucked.
The one catch? So much stuff I need to catch up on. Seriously, why the heck does everything (near-literally, it's not a hyperbole at all) have to happen when I'm gone? This must be a conspiracy.
I feel strange. No, that does not have to do with the moldy iced tea I accidentally drank earlier. At least, I hope not. I feel like I've resolved something, and I feel happy, and sad, all at once. It might be the tired that is contributing to this strange array of feelings over different topics at the same time, but still.
Am I making sense? No? That's okay, I do that frequently.
The resolving is something still very personal, something I've been struggling to figure out for a while. (Remember when I was going to talk about something a couple months ago, but never brought it up? Yeah. That.) I'm not even sure at this point if it's completely over, or if this is something that can be described in those terms. I wish I could make more sense for you, dear readers, but alas, this is going to remain ambiguous. Who knows, though. It might pop up again, and I might be able to be more open about it then. For now, though, I'm satisfied with saying it's resolved.
Still not making sense? Then why are you still reading, if I might ask? ^_^
I'm happy, because two dear friends of mine unexpectedly and rather suddenly got together around 4th of July. It's cute. I love them both to death. Best wishes for you guys, wherever this crazy thing goes. =D
Ah, I see. Sticking around to see if it gets coherent, are we? Good choice. I think.
Lastly, and it's probably the petty, self-pity sad in the most ridiculous way, but the above news once again leads me to wonder if that will ever happen for me. You know? As brilliant as she was, I'm not sure I want to be like Jane Austen and be alone and write novels til I die. Alone.
Oii. I should probably go to bed. Or take this song off repeat. Or perhaps both.
On a better note, (and tying into the resolving bit, but this detail is all you're getting :P) I got to see my friend Kathryn today; she had to move out to Middle of Nowhere, Arizona after school ended last year. She used to be my best friend, but due to a bunch of stupid reasons for not staying in contact often enough on both our ends, that's now changed. Don't get me wrong, I loved seeing her again, even if it was only for church; I just don't really feel the connection we used to have. Not as much of it, anyway. And I would have liked to have spent the time together doing something awesome, like actually having a conversation over coffee or something instead of going to church, and maybe I shouldn't have insisted on driving, but honestly, how can I have an actual meaningful conversation with my dad, little sister, and grandma all in the car at one point? Yeah... no. I think Jessica talked to her more than I did. I just fail at this, don't I? Anyway, she's hoping to come out again towards the end of the month to accompany me and the lucky group of friends to Phantom, like she promised me over a year ago. Then again, she also swore she'd move back out here, but has that happened? Nope.
Wow, I didn't mean for that to be so bitter. I really am happy I got to see her, even if it doesn't seem like it. I was giddy when I got her phone call last night after my flight landed.
On a completely random tanget, yet related note in my mind, I think I fail at grasping opportunities. I also think I fall in love with ideals, and not reality.
I'm hopeless, aren't I.
I GET TO GO TO FORKS TOMORROW.
Yeah. Exciting stuff. ^_^ I'll have a big long post all about it tomorrow, hopefully with pictures, too!
'Night all. =D
Tagged by cuileann.
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they’re not any good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying now, shaping your summer. Post these instructions in your blog along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they’re listening to.
(Look! Instead of a daily song... seven! Ha, to make up for the week I missed... >.> Blog post to follow the list of music-magic.)
1. "Save" - The Rocket Summer
2. "Porch Songs" - Chris Pureka
3. "The Gladdest Thing" - Deb Talan (no youtube link! o.o Drop me a comment if you want to give the song a listen, it's great.)
4. "Goodnight And Go" - Imogen Heap
5. "Deathbed" - Relient K
6. Hoppipolla - Sigur Ros (the band is from Iceland, hence the lyrics not being in English. But the song title means "hopping into puddles". :])
7. Back In Your Head - Tegan and Sara
Enjoy! Oh, and Angie and Patrice, now its your turn!
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Okay, actual blog-post time.
I'm really missing home. It's ridiculous. It doesn't even make sense because I'm traveling with my family. It's a little better this week now that we're staying in a house (my "uncle and aunt's" ...we're Filipino, it's a long story, hence the quote marks.) and we're back in the US. I'm not sure what it was about Vancouver, but I didn't really like it all that much. Maybe because we were staying in a sketchy hotel (called the Cassandra Hotel, if you can believe it. Honestly, you would think it would be cooler... o.~), I dunno. But I'm glad to be a little closer to home now. I'm also missing the ship, too, and all my cruise peeps. We're all trying to find each other on Facebook, though, so that's always fun. =)
Not quite sure what we're going to be doing tomorrow; we're about an hour or so out of Seattle. Hopefully we're just going to sleep in or something.
Anyway, until tomorrow then. Night! =D
...To go home. Really, really badly. I swear, I've never been this homesick in my whole effing life. Scratch that: I've never been homesick. Ever. Gah, wtf... I hate traveling in a huge group like this. >.<
Read more...My hundreth post! Impossible! o.o The song is by The Fray.
I'm in Vancouver right now, and currently operating on 4 hours of sleep because of last night. Oh, last night... I didn't really think I got particularly close to anyone over the past week on the cruise, but I'm missing my group. A lot. And I'm also missing home even more. It sucks, being in this massive hole of missing people. Argh. Well, thank the gods for Facebook, right?
Jessica is currently breathing down my neck ("Am not! I'm breathing on your arm.") to get online as well, so I think I'll go. I need to shower and get ready for bed, anyway. No picture today, either, I haven't gotten around to emptying my camera's memory card in a while. Don't worry, a full load of pictures from Alaska, Vancouver, and ultimately Seattle (and Forks of Twilight fame! EEE!) shall find their way on here via Photobucket link once I get home.
Adios for now, amigos. =)
The song is one of my favorites by Vanessa Carlton.
We went to Denali National Park yesterday; on the way back to the hotel, I saw this picture in real life. =D There was actually a full one in the sky, the bright one on the left; I'll try and manipulate the two pictures I took of it (it was way too big to fit in the frame) and see if I can't make it into one big picture later.
I thought Denali was a disappointment. We left the hotel too late, and once we got there we didn't even walk around and see anything aside from the Visitor's Center. It wasn't very fun. We didn't see any animals, either.
Oh well. Just means I have to go back sometime, heh.
We head off to the ship for our week-long cruise later this morning. But first, we're going to this place in Anchorage called Earthquake Park to try and see some Beluga Whales. I hope we actually see some, the little buggers are so cute.
Anyway, I should probably head off now, I still need to stuff a few things into my suitcase before we leave. This shall be the last post until next week, unless I find a way to hack into some free internet somehow.
Hope you enjoyed the picture, and also this upcoming week! =D
Good morning!
No link, the user removed all the vids! o.o But it's more Imogen Heap, mwehehehe.
I'm in Alaska, and it's absolutely amazing here! I'm having difficulty just finding one outstanding picture from yesterday to post in this entry, so maybe I'll have to settle for two. Or three.
No song, I'm too tired to think of a good one. Go listen to something by The Beatles or Switchfoot. =)
I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon! So psyched. I'll be sure to take lots of pictures and get them up online as soon as possible, if you're interested in seeing them. (I'm taking lappy with me; I think I'd probably die without it. >.>) Maybe I'll even pick one outstanding one each day and post it with my blog post, which I'm hoping to keep regularly (except for the week I'm actually going to be on the ship, since they apparently charge internet by the minute. Yikes.)
Anyway, I'm out. Peace!
Ahh. That's better. I couldn't really take the new format, pretty as it was. Maybe some other time I'll try again. I found a few others that I really liked...
Today's song: "Pangea" by Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin. Watch the video, too, I really like how they put it together. Plus, the dinosaurs make my life. =D
So, I'm all packed... well, as much as I can be, anyway. I still need to pack a few assorted items and last minute things like my toothbrush and shampoo and other such goodies. I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to fit everything in, but that's another story. ^^
Not much else to write about, other than I was experimenting with my new camera, which I still need a name for. I name inanimate objects, you see. For example, my film camera's name is Louis, my iPod's name is Shelby, and my laptop's name is Peanut.
...What? I'm not insane...much....
Heheh. Anyway, enjoy your day. =)
More Imogen Heap, because I am seriously addicted to that album. I don't want to know how many times I've listened to it since Tuesday. Also, this user on the youtube vid has the rest of the album uploaded in the same format, so go check it out, yo!
I was going to write yesterday, but Morgan and Kenny and Athan, a few friends of hers that I know, came and "kidnapped" me last night and we went to this place known as 'the Ghost of Cypress Creek'. Long story short, this creek had to be diverted when people were developing the area, so they stuck it in a tunnel underground. It was insane! We could hear the traffic rolling over the manholes on the street above us, and the reverb in there was incredible. We also sat down at one point and turned off our flashlights--pitch darkness. I want to go there again. :D
After that, we went over to our friend David's house and listened to a Sufjan Stevens album he had managed to get on vinyl. It was really amusing, because he was all excited about such old technology. Not that I'm dissing vinyl or anything, I thought it was pretty cool, too. Just not as much as David, haha.
All in all, I got back home around two in the morning, and my computer was off, so, no entry. What I was going to write about got expelled from my head, anyway, and for that I'm very glad.
You see, I think I'm having an emotional relapse. Yesterday was especially bad, I just couldn't help myself when I was thinking about him. *sigh* It's difficult to explain. I just... don't want it to be there anymore. I know it'll take time, but I think this past week (well, after last Thursday, anyway) has been a bit deceiving. I'm just glad Morgan decided to take me along on their adventure yesterday; wallowing in self-pity as I most surely would have been doesn't sound appealing at all.
Hopefully things will get better--I leave for Alaska next Wednesday! Woo! I've already started packing, hehe. I'm paranoid I'll end up over-packing, considering the state of the section of my closet that I've designated as cruise-worthy. ^_^
I think that's about it for now... oh! Congrats to the Class of '08! :D Graduation was today, at least in the local district. It's weird to think of so many friends (and certain others, ahem) all graduated now.
Anyway... have a great Friday the 13th tomorrow! I want to have a creepy adventure, but I'm not sure how that is going to work out. I think the most exciting thing that's going to happen is camera shopping, haha. Speaking of which... pics (all 6 of them, woo) from the Bro-Am can be viewed here. Enjoy. =)
Hello, blog. It's been a while.
Granted, not as long as some of the other times before, when I fell off the face of the planet for a few months. Well, here I am, picking this thing up like an old book, finding the place where I left off, and beginning again.
Summer has officially begun, and I've got the sunburns to prove it. Maya calls them sexy. I say, not so much. Me and Morgan went to Texas with our Girl Scout troop, and we hung out at the beach. Yeah. We went to Texas to go to the beach. How awesome are we? ^_^ Pictures here.
The high school prom is tomorrow. I think Jessica is going to a certain "de-Prom" with some mutual friends of ours, but I shall be alone with my thoughts. Sometimes I wish there was an off button for my brain.
I'm also starting to regret not working at camp this summer. I miss it. I need to get up to the mountains this summer, preferrably more than once. And Alaska doesn't count. But I will no doubt love the awesome moutains in Alaska; we're going to visit Denali National Park before we go on our cruise. Yay, caribou and grizzly bears! =)
I'm not sure what else to say. I feel kind of listless and irritable, it's been like this for the past week. I'm not sure what's up.
Well, whatever. Til later, then.
I am so wide awake it's not even funny. Must be the techno I'm now listening to. ^_^
So, guess what? I'M GOING TO ALASKA. It's all booked and everything. Oh, man, it's going to be so sweet! I'm so pumped for summer!
And this weekend; Maya's flying down for Morgan's birthday party, and we're hanging out with Matt on Friday; it's the weekend of epic proportions! With a techno soundtrack!
No onomatopoeia can possibly convey the overwhelming joy within me. =D
Better mood today. That, and I'm almost positive we're going on a cruise to Alaska this summer! I'm excited. I think this is just what I need. Plus, you never know who you'll meet on a cruise. o_~
Anyway, this wonderful song by Relient K (off of their most recent release, "Five Score and Seven Years Ago") pretty much sums up my attitude right now, and I highly recommend the listen. =D
Peace out, kids! <3
Today is officially no different than any other day, aside from those slight factors that indeed do make it different and grant me the peace of mind that I'm really not living the same day over and over again.
(...That sentence was kind of confusing for me to read again, but it's past midnight, so that might have something to do with it.)
Anyway, so class is out for the weekend, and monday is Veteran's Day, so no class then... Darah has invited me to go with her to Los Angeles for the weekend and play the tourist game, even though we live, like, two hours away, haha.
I just hope I don't end up strangling her or some such thing; it always seems that everytime I spend time with her, I get upset or all riled up about something. Last time had been in September when she had told me something about... well, let's just say it has to do with the guy that I've been angsting over recently, but in all reality this has been going on for much longer than that; in fact, I think it'll be a year in December....
Anyway, she told me something I found interesting: over the summer, apparently said guy had been asking about me... like, naming me specifically... I thought I was going to pass out, honestly. I was like, why NOW; why couldn't I just walk away quietly, even though I couldn't get my thoughts away from him for very long over the summer, once I finally figured everything out...
I'm just absolutely pathetic sometimes, you have no idea.
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