Summer plans?

I realize most of my posts recently have been all ambiguous and depressing. I should be happier now that summer is here, and I am, truly, but sometimes when I'm sitting all alone in the near-dark of my room, computer close because all my friends live in it, my mind ferrets off into a sad place full of lost memories and tangible regret. But only sometimes. :)

Morgan posted about last year and I have to say that I agree with a lot of what she says. I'm a very different person from who I was a year ago, and yet very much the same. And now that summer is once again upon me, I have no idea how to top last year. Texas was unexpectedly fun; and of course there's the cruise in Alaska and the week in Washington. Not to mention the outings to the beach, and getting sunburned three times too many. There are too many good things about last summer, and the only thing I can really think about is how can I make this summer stand out? There's three free concerts to look forward to, and I'll be watching far, far too much good television. But what aside from that? It makes me want to go and do something, go somewhere, spontaneously and without much planning and foresight, just to see what happens. It makes me want to meet new people, form new relationships, hell, maybe even a summer fling? I have no idea, really. I'm restless. But in a good way.

Anyway. Just some rambling. Thanks for sticking with me. Now I'm going to watch some Veronica Mars, which you should also watch because it's really good. :D

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For her:

My God. I miss you so much my heart aches a little.

I really messed things up, didn't I.

Perhaps that is why.

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stars

If I could, I'd lay with my back against some lonely asphalt highway, car silent, staring up at the constellations that would bleed into the velvet of the dark mountain sky. I'd listen to this song on endless repeat until I grew tired of it or it lulled me to sleep, thinking and dreaming about everything and nothing and those spots in between. Far, far away, a couple would be having sex, hoping roommates can't hear them; while I would make love with my eyes to the stars, content in my aloneness, tangible and tasteless like water--but only just this once.

I am tired of lying.

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Steps

1) Life is unfair and kicks you around like a fuckin hacky-sack
2) Suck it up
3) Move on.

A fortune cookie said this: "You deserve respect and will get it."

Yeah. We'll see.

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"Thursday" or "lonely owl-night" or "Owl Eye Echoes"

There is an owl in my neighborhood.
I can hear him as I sit here,
grasping the air that I didn't realize I needed.
He screeches, echoing in the suburban waffle-work,
stopping and starting like the frogs, like the crickets never do;
like a telegram.
Come outside. Stop. I miss you. Stop.
And I lay back on the cement, heedless of spiders,
watching the rotation of the earth reflected in the stars.

(thanks to the lovely Summermoon for the second title)

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Storytime

Cuileann did this first, as she usually tends to do. :)

I went to a pretty conservative, small, private Baptist school from kindergarten til fourth grade. This in no way reflects my religious associations, it was just close and they'd have me as a student. I had missed the cutoff for the nearby public school, and my parents didn't want me to wait another year (because I am a genius, duh. :P), so they enrolled me.

Fast forward a few years to grade three. I was a terror for most of my pre high-school career, and by that I mean I was one of the merciless kids who'd give you the cold shoulder and laugh with the popular crowd. And since I went to such a small school, me and my best friend pretty much were the popular crowd at the time. But anyway.

So it's lunchtime and this doofy boy named Nicholas is sitting at our table, drinking a soda. He gets up and leaves for a bit, and myself and my best friend, Sarah, sit and observe in various degrees of horror and amusement as a bee comes flying over to our table to sample the soda, subsequently falling into the open can. Nicholas comes back, and before we could say anything (not that we were going to), he takes a long, deep drink from the soda can. The two of us sitting there, eyes wide and trying not to laugh outright, observe as he gulps, and then merely coughs twice.

To this day, I cannot for the life of me explain it.

Your turn. :)

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Star Trek "review"

This is probably the briefest review you'll ever read and it consists of 4 words:

Go. See. This. Movie.

Ha. No, but seriously, you really should. Even if you know absolutely nothing about Star Trek. This movie is definitely n00b friendly. Well-written, directed, and cast. Also, Zachary Quinto as Spock is kinda hot. >.> All in all an excellent movie, and well-worth your time.

My one qualm: 300 years into the future and we're still listening to The Beastie Boys? Come on now...

P.S. See it in IMAX!

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Grarrarrar...

May and I arrived at the theater two hours early, stood in line in the beautiful, yet baking-hot SoCal sunshine..... and didn't get in. Seriously, much disappointment. We were roughly 20 people away from getting in, and.... bah.

I still think I'll do the movie review for Star Trek after I see it, but it'll have none of the subtle, snooty pretentiousness of those whose author has seen the movie before the greater public has. ;) But one day.......

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An Amusing Conversation

So, I'm sick. Apparently with "Swine Cold" (thanks, Matt. xD). Anyway, here's a bit from a texting conversation between Maya and I this morning:

Maya - You're gonna dieeeeeee.
Me - Bahaha. Thanks. It's like Oregon Trail: Cassandra has died of Swine Flu.
Maya - Man, we need to make that. It'll be the modern day Oregon Trail.
Me - "The American Media": navigate the tricky waters of pandemic, hysteria, bias, and public opinion; fight against The Lemming Effect; try your hand at surviving The Internet; your goal: make it to the harbor of Sanity, Respectability, and Common Sense in tact!

Now, I know it's super tongue-in-cheek, but come on. So true.

So that's my witty quote for the day.

In other news: I'm totally going to see STAR TREK tonight with May. Well, I mean, it's first-come, first-served and not 100% guaranteed, but we're showing up two hours early, so we'd better get seats, or else.

Movie review forthcoming.

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