All of Me

Song written and performed (flawlessly....) by Jon Schmidt, a genius on piano. Seriously, watch the man play. It's amazing. It's the first song on the video clip, but you should listen to the rest, because it's pretty. =)

Anyway...

I think I've come to something of a realization.

I don't let people see who I am most of the time. Or, at least, pick and choose aspects of my personality.

It's weird, because I think I know someone really well, then I do something, and they end up being surprised. Like, I was hanging out with Darah and Teresa last night along with Morgan. I haven't seen them in ages, and I was definitely looking forward to it, most definitely. We went out to dinner and watched a movie ("Kung Fu Panda", what a strange but cute and rather good film). Anyway, so after the movie we were walking to the parking lot and I cracked a 'that's what she said' joke. It was honestly one of the best moments to say that phrase I've heard in a long time. They laughed, but then Darah and Teresa are acting all surprised, like it was the last thing I'd ever do in my life. Morgan quickly contradicted this view, however; she's heard me say it more, heheh. I mean, it was fun, don't get me wrong, but this one tiny (hilarious) incident got me thinking.

Compounded with that, Jessica was babysitting the cute little boy from church I go on about all the time on Friday night, and one of the first things she told me when she got home: "Britany (the mom, who's only in her early 20s) wants to hook you up with someone."

"...........What? Why?"

"I dunno, she just likes to do that sort of thing. We were talking; she says you're too quiet, that you never talk."

"...I talk to her all the time."

"She said, 'I mean, you're supposed to be quiet in church, but seriously.'"

"....And what does hooking me up with someone have to do with anything?"

"I dunno. And I told her that people called you the gutter. Haha, that you recently got upgraded to 'the sewer', too. She didn't believe me."

I mean, I don't know Britany as well as I'd like, but I can't help but see a trend here: people tend to think I'm somewhat of a quiet, unprepossessing good-girl sort of person. At least, that's what I get from all this. I mean, even when I'm talking to Matt about things, he tries to avoid telling me something potentially graphic, even though I ask. Honestly? I may be innocent, but not that innocent. I want to see them take a tour of my mind sometime; they wouldn't believe it. Even just reading some of my writing, sheesh...

I don't know. Most of it is probably my own doing, this persona that most people see. It's annoying, though. And I'm not quite sure how to get rid of it without doing something stupid and potentially endangering to my good repute. We'll see, though.

Anyway, thanks for listening to me rant. It must get cumbersome and tedious.