- social interaction is not as difficult as I once thought it was
- painter's tape makes my posters fall off the walls
- caffeine is not a good idea past 9pm
- sometimes it is all right if you're ditched
- I miss you so much more when I'm alone.
I'm sitting in this borrowed room, curtains drawn over the view overlooking the lake and gardens, still blinking the blur from my eyes. It's almost ten o'clock, but my body protests that it's really before seven. My mouth full of coffee and chocolate milk, ears full of Regina Spektor--this moment is hard to beat.
As hot water washed over my skin this morning, I thought about how there wasn't a shortage here, how I could take as long as I liked and only feel marginally guilty instead of being harped at by my father because of the bills. And it's gloriously beautiful here, all shades of blue and green. It reminds me of Washington last summer.
But as beautiful as it is, it's still not home. Not yet. No dry chaparral, golden and crisp beneath my sandal-clad feet; no stiflingly hot temperatures; no spontaneous visits to friends' houses. Oh, and the ocean. I don't miss her, not yet, but I will.
I feel a world away from the country I grew up in, separated by an ocean of land-water and all those millions of people who live there.
I should be packing and not procrastinating online like this, but Television Without Pity posted this fall preview of shows to 'watch, DVR, or skip' and I figure, what the heck. If I'm going to be getting into the industry, I better start watching more TV. Also, excuse to post! Yeah!
Monday
Castle (10 pm, ABC) - Nathan Fillion. Enough said. (I actually wanted to watch this during the midseason but I had class and then they stopped streaming the episodes online, which was lame.)
Tuesday
V (8 pm, ABC) - Sci-fi! Morena Baccarin! Alan Tudyk! Lizard people!
Wednesday
Glee (9 pm, ABC) - I heard a lot of good things about this show when the pilot aired a few months ago. Plus, singing and dancing.
Thursday
Flash Forward (8 pm, ABC) - I know very little about this show, but it looks awesome.
Community (9:30 pm, NBC) - Joel McHale in a comedy focusing on a group of students attending community college. I'll probably be catching this one online... I hope it doesn't suck.
30 Rock (9:30 pm, NBC) - Probably the funniest show on television, and one of my absolute favorites. Tina Fey! Alec Baldwin! I can't wait til October.
Friday
Dollhouse (9 pm, FOX) - If you missed season one, find it online and watch! You have a month. Go go go!
- I wish the marine layer tonight didn't prevent me from watching the meteor shower.
- I wish I was more in the loop with certain people.
- I wish my ostracism wasn't mostly my fault.
- I wish it were a lot less exhausting for me to be optimistic.
- I wish I was more excited about this whole college thing.
- I wish she hadn't moved away.
- I wish I had more time.
- I wish I could tell you everything.
- drop off a book at a friend's house
- finish a ton of comic books I've borrowed
- call the roomie whom I think is a vampire
- freak out about leaving
- dance around to this song a lot
- watch Superman Returns
Like a freight train, and all the air whooshes from my lungs under the pressure. But instead of broken bones, it's calendar pages and countdowns; slow-seeping panic, and relief, and fear, and regret, and excitement, and worry, and responsibility, and so much stress.
I have less than 30 days left in San Diego. I won't be back until December.
...Shit.
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