Concerning Winter

To be completely honest, I have not been enjoying today. Today's the sort of day that I've come to loathe and fear and despise, yet can't seem to shake once Winter hits.

Today's the sort of day where you wake up exhausted, agitated, and wanting something you can't have. Today's the sort of day where you snap at people purely because they're there. Today's the sort of day where all you want to do is curl up in bed and hope you never wake up again.

Today's the sort of day where you stare aimlessly out the car window at the grey clouds overhead, looking for the sun that doesn't come. Today's the sort of day where you fake a smile because you don't feel like dealing with other people's misplaced sympathy. Today's the sort of day where you are in a room full of people, yet you feel completely alone.

Today's the sort of day where you blast The Rocket Summer until your eardrums are ready to burst because all you want to do is feel something besides the numbing sadness, but it doesn't work. Today's the sort of day where you question your life and existence, where you wonder if it's even worth it anymore. Today's the sort of day where you regret all the things you haven't done, where you want to make a difference before it's too late.

Today's the sort of day when you feel like crying for no reason at all, or every reason imaginable.

But that's beside the point.

I hate Winter. I really, truly do. And it's not that I randomly hate on Winter just for the hell of it. But I've said this before.

So to prove this, here's my list of Winter's top ten redeeming qualities (not in any particular order):

1. crisp air
2. bright stars
3. frost on the lawn in the morning
4. delicious food
5. scarves
6. hot chocolate
7. Christmas Eve
8. Winter Break
9. my birthday
10. presents

See? I don't hate on Winter. If anything, Winter hates on me...